March Reading List 2025

 


MARCH (1 book | 266 pgs)


05.) The Genocide House by Robert Kloss (Novel, 266 pgs) | 2/5

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March remains an incredibly tough month for me; mom's birthday comes at the beginning of the month, mine in the middle, then the anniversary of her passing near the end. There is no part of the month where her absence is not felt despite my trying to simply get through it all. 

But this month has been especially tough, both personally and professionally. I won't expand on the personal stuff, though it weighs relatively heavy. But professionally, I'm getting my ass handed to me on a daily basis. The education I'm getting is good; the realization that I'm still not at the level I want to be...is frustrating. And that's all on me, I'm finding. 

There is a mountain of things I need to learn in order to be half as good as I want to be at my job. And though I still love the work, it has been a really, really hard month. Some of that is work related, a fair amount remains external and out of my hands. 

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I've not made much headway on the next book. Each dive into that pool of memories reminds me how fucking hard it will be to finish. Couple that with my current headspace and the dangerous buffoonery of the political landscape right now and I am really not at my best. 

There was a point last year where I felt like I was finally coming out of the grief, like I was finally achieving a sort of system balance or reset and then...gone. 

So for now, we continue to live and work through the stress while trying to find clearer, more positive, more creative headspaces to play in. 

I have a trip coming soon, which will provide a fantastic bit of disconnect for a few days. At least there is that. 


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