Under a Black Rainbow

  MAY (17 books | 4,475 pgs) 51.) Mimi's Tales of Terror by Junji Ito (Graphic Novel, 224 pgs) | 4/5  52.) The Liminal by Junji Ito (Graphic Novel, 211 pgs) | 4/5  53.) Soichi by Junji Ito (Graphic Novel, 413 pgs) | 1/5  54.) Tombs by Junji Ito (Graphic Novel, 343 pgs) | 4/5  55.) Alfred Hitchock & the Three Investigators #5: The Mystery of the Vanishing Treasure , by Robert Arthur (Young Adult, 152 pgs) | 4/5  56.) The Umbrella Academy Boxed Set by Gerard Way (Graphic Novel, 568 pgs) | 2/5 57.) Alfred Hitchock & the Three Investigators #6: The Secret of Skeleton Island , by Robert Arthur (Young Adult, 158 pgs) | 4/5 58.) Alfred Hitchock & the Three Investigators #7: The Mystery of the Fiery Eye , by Robert Arthur (Young Adult, 164 pgs) | 4/5  59.) Alfred Hitchock & the Three Investigators #8: The Mystery of the Silver Spider , by Robert Arthur (Young Adult, 184 pgs) | 4/5  60.) Alfred Hitchock & the Three Investigators #9: The...

The depression has returned and creation has gone both awry and away. I am uninspired and unenthused, two things made better with a reliable muse, which isn't necessary for either to exist...but it helps. I'm consuming media (videos, movies, books) believing at some point, things will kickstart back into something positive. I should be painting most evenings and I just can't figure out how to paint anything. The steady hum of channel two static has made a home inside this skull again.  That I'm not actively working TOWARD a singular goal or end result is almost assuredly playing its own role in this fractured morality play. I have repeatedly applied for art and writing residencies and have been denied entrance to all. I have done book events hyping the latest publication, with others on the horizon. I've made a few paintings since the spring arrived, but the garage has been mostly quiet and lifeless.  Other than the next book, I have no real direction with anything....